at ease?
I’ve hella been MIA from tumblr since school started but now i have a little time since i can’t sleep and i can’t get anymore ap bio in my damn head. i haven’t written in a long time and i’m starting to notice that i’m a lot less calmer and i rant A LOT.
well, i thought that the pain wouldn’t subside when you left but i was wrong. it went away slowly after i got used to the idea that you weren’t always going to be around and i needed that. i think it was just extra hard cause we could barely contact each other. somehow we dealt with it.
recently, i thought that i loved you less just cause i felt like i didn’t miss you as much. truth is i still miss you the same, if not more,but i just learned to cope with it better i guess… i learned to be more distracted and not feel guilty about going out and not sitting at home waiting for you. it’s a good thing i did. as much as i love you, i can’t put my life on pause for you all the time. you’re a priority but so is my life.
i guess i just learned that being away from you isn’t so bad and that we can do it within this next year of you going off to college :D i’m happy you’re coming home in the evening tmr and i just wanna see you again.
i will treasure that last few days left before you go although i do have school and stuff. nonetheless i love you hun. i hope you’re sleeping well. you have to wake up in like 3 hours anyway to go to the airport.
can’t wait to see you :)
